Confidence Talk

Today I wanna talk about confidence. And you would probably have gone like: wtf, again?
Oh yes, again.

Contrary to popular belief, I am not a confident person. You're still free to disagree, but I just wanted to say that it is something that I have been struggling with since I'd grown enough to explore myself. Since forever.

Maybe one part of me knows that I need that confidence, but another part of me keeps reminding myself to be extremely careful to not cross the line into becoming arrogant or proud because I get that comment all the time. And I am really tired about it and yes I wanna change it! I reflected and realized that I should be accountable in getting those comments so I always reminded myself to be very cautious about it. And whether I like it or not, it sometimes restrains me from building up the needed confidence.

Maybe I should let that part go. Maybe I shouldn't care about the arrogance comments. Maybe I shouldn't care about what people think, because those came from people who didn't know me well enough. But I do have my doubt as you could tell.

So maybe... just maybe... one day if you think that I am over-confident, would you excuse me and pull me back gently? Before that, maybe I should be carefree and do everything I can to boost that confidence first.