You gotta choose

Ever pictured about how your perfect life should be? How does it similar to your reality today?

Overanalyzing has always always been a big part of my paranoia. I am not mentally prepared, so you shouldn't throw me any surprises; I am not expecting this, so I shut you up from acting out of the plan... I have plenty of these, and I always manage to justify myself for these... awkwardness.

We all have rules and boundaries for how we want our lives to be, and I was loose on those terms. And I made careless mistakes and allowed myself to be treated less well than I deserved. I don't bite, but that doesn't mean I don't have teeth. Right? If that makes any sense at all :)

I don't give a crap for any crappy acts by any crappy people anymore. Because this is happiness. And I am fully focused on being a happy person.

Leaving Malaysia in less than 24 hours' time. How do I feel?
Well, let's just say... I am loved here, yet I yearn for independence.
Complacency makes me worried; and independence makes me lonely.

I cannot have everything.